I think I messed up…
I think I messed up - do you ever look at a painting and think, shit, I’ve really messed it up now. And you don’t know at that point if you’ve messed it up beyond repair, or if it’s just stuck in the messy middle?
That’s where I am with one of my paintings at the minute. I had done a really thick beautiful layer of colours and textures and movement. However, I knew it couldn’t stay there. I couldn’t envisage where it was going in the state that it was in and knew it would need to be moved on.
“Maybe I should have waited until I had had something in my head? Maybe I should have used thick layers like I had used previously? Or maybe I should really have said fuck it and heaped on more and more paint to bring it to the next point.”
Who knows quite frankly?! It’s never easy losing out on pieces of a painting that you like. Or having to go over some cool texture that you swept up out of nowhere.
And it’s difficult when you have limited time or mental capacity for creativity so you feel like everything should be “great” right off the bat. I won’t speak for you, but my painting times don’t always go to plan. And sometimes, the days when I’m trying hardest are the days when nothing good happens and the days that I just play and enjoy are the days that I magic beauty on the canvas and it just all comes together.
So here’s to the messy middle and messing things up. Keep moving forward and lets hope it all comes together in the end!